Anyone who has taken a psychology class can tell you that there are 5 stages of grief: denial, anger, depression, bargaining and acceptance. When you go through a significant break-up ( you know, like mine) it is important to treat it like a death and allow yourself to grieve because in all honesty, the person you once thought was wonderful, kind and amazing no longer exists to you, he has been replaced by an evil twin who it seems has only to have one purpose- to keep causing pain. Because this is a not a clean cut break up, it gives me awesome opportunities to keep re-enjoying all the stages of grief – in my special case, I spend a lot of time switching back and forth between anger and sadness. So basically I’m up to about 472 different levels of anger, 405 different levels of sadness and 100 different levels of disbelieve in the last few weeks with some other assorted emotions for good measure.
Today though, I went through a completing new stage – wondering if I ever left anyone pining for me. Like am I the one that someone let get away? So having said that, if you should happen to know the man of average looks who I encountered in the maxi pad section of Super Wal-mart two years ago and who looked me up and down and said,”How you doin?”, can you give him my phone number?
Seriously though, I believe that everything turns out exactly how it is supposed to and that God answers our prayers, even if the answer is no. I am confident that I will get on the other side of this as a butterfly, a pearl or a diamond. ( If I’m really lucky, I might all three) I also believe in karma to my bidding. 😉 I think that is the final stage of grief, acceptance and really, I’m just about there.