If I have become painfully aware of anything over the last weeks, it’s that life doesn’t always go as planned and you need to be able to come up with a new plan at a moment’s notice. Even then, the best of plans tend to get thwarted and re planned over and over. Sometimes these new plans require thinking outside the box, hence the birth of my tour. I was pretty sure that normal tools weren’t going to help me feel better this time.
I want to be honest and truthful here and so at times, I have been mincing my words, so as to be kind to everyone involved in my life, even he who was the initiator of the pain. But I have decided that is not going to help me heal and get past this. So here is goes. Having to live with someone after you have changed the scope of your relationship, to be frank, sucks. Sucks ass. Every moment he is home serves to remind me just how different our relationship is now. We’re watching TV on separate couches. We’re at a standstill over who is going to give in and buy groceries. I’m able to take a nap behind a closed bedroom door without anyone coming in to “check on me” and wake me up with a kiss and hug. He is non-stop texting with someone I don’t know and every once in a while, when he thinks I’m not watching, smiling like the cat the ate the canary.
The worst part is, for him, none of these things are a problem because he’s already over me. He thinks we can just joke and banter like normal. He was over me long ago, while I was still in love with him and planning our future.
After scrolling through Facebook today, I came across the picture on the right. So I ask myself, what would MacGyver do? Because this is a
sticky situation without a regular straightforward solution. We all know what to do- chew some gum, grab a paper clip, blow something up and get on with his day. So I have no choice, that is what I will do. Luckily a have a brand new pack of gum sent to me by a friend for my trip. Instead of a paper clip, I have a big fat binder with all my travel plans. And as far as blowing up something goes, I am going camping next weekend and would be lying if said I wasn’t planning on burning somethings. And then I’ll go on with my day.
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