So I’m slowly re-acclimating to”normal” life which really isn’t normal at all since I’m still cleaning up the messes left from the break-up. You know, like how we still technically live together and all his stuff is still here. In piles. Everywhere. Other people’s messes are so annoying. I can deal with my own piles and messes because any minute now, I’m going to tackle them gusto and be perfectly organized. Not so easy with someone Else’s “treasures”.
This past weekend I went to see my parents for the first time since my trip. I needed deliver a wide variety of souvenirs and claim some important documents I had left there for safe keeping before my trip. I did however leave the DNA sample behind. Doesn’t every parent need one of those? Not to gross you out too much but lets just say mine was a result of wearing those special foot peel chemical baggies and it was like the size of a fifty cent piece.
I took Bailey with me because he had a birthday on Sunday and I never miss his birthday. Before we went to my mom and dad’s we stopped at my sister Jamie’s house and saw her kids which are really adorable. My favorite part was lunch time when poor little Alice was so tired she fell asleep mid lunch. She literally falls asleep chewing and then wakes up looking for another bite. It is so adorable to watch. Apparently this is her thing. Earlier in the week, she feel asleep snacking on a graham cracker; woke up three hours later and started chewing without missing a beat.
When we finally made it to mom and dad’s, the clouds cleared and it was a perfect day for swimming so we all suited up – even three year old Eddie and headed out. I think we all know how I feel about pools. So it was a great afternoon. After swimming there was pizza and cake for the birthday boy and then the two of us headed over to Jessica’s house for the night. Best part – once again this girl used sunscreen this weekend and did not burn. I don’t want to jinx myself, but I am thinking I might be able to make it a whole summer without a single lobster incident. Keep your fingers crossed.
Sunday morning, after my sister’s special scrambled eggs with goat cheese and fresh cut chives, ( that is the only reason I sleep at her house – she doesn’t even have WiFi) we headed back to the pool for some “splashes and kicks” before heading home to get Bailey back to his mom’s for a surprise gathering of some of his buddies for pizza, cake and general teenage “hanging out” I’m not going to lie, I stayed for most of the party and was relieved when I escaped.
After all the excitement, it was nice to be home with the dog and relax. I’m not going to lie though, it’s sometimes weird being home alone all the time. I mean, I was home alone a fair amount before when He was on the road, but we usually spent the weekends together. Here’s the thing that we don’t talk about – I mean- in theory, it’s a great idea to just have to worry about yourself but after so many years of worrying about someone else, I’m just not good at it yet. I’m not saying I won’t get there but like my mom keeps reminding me, I’m just making new habits to replace the old ones.
But you know what got me today – I keep reading all this hype about AIRbnb and so I went on the site to check it out. (side note – there are some cool places) Anyways, I was looking through 5 star listing or whatever and I saw the most amazing Hobbit House in Washington state. It was so neat and the thing is, I didn’t really even like the Hobbit/Lord of the Rings movies but I watched them with him because he liked them. So of course, my first thought when I saw it was that I should tell/show him about it, but he’s not that person anymore. He’s not my person. And I was pissed because it’s been like 3 months and a stupid hobbit house made me cry.
So if this ever happens to you, just know that feelings come unexpectedly in waves and just when you think it’s over, something will smack you in the face and remind you that you need a little more time. You still know you’re ok but it is just going take a little longer to put all the pieces back together.