So the day I thought would never come is finally here. There is actually movement of the evil twin’s possessions out of the apartment. Now, don’t get too excited, I mean only about maybe 50% of his stuff is out, but it’s enough that the redecorating fairies are dancing in my head.
It has been a ROUGH day and that is an understatement. The questions of “Do you want this” or “what did we decide about that” just seem ridiculous. I mean you used up 6 years of my life, my last child bearing years only to come home one day and tell me you haven’t been in love with me for years. Do you really think I give a flying fuck who gets the white patio chairs? You ruined our family, you think letting me keep a chair makes up for that? It all seems so trivial.
Poor Bailey is so very sad and disappointed and packing up his stuff was so hard for him. It was frustrating because I did not want to engage in the packing at all, none of this was my choice. This was all his father’s doing. He decided 4 months ago this day would come. He should have been the one telling his son how to pack and what to pack. Not the girl trying to not cry ( and failing miserably) all day. In the midst of all the tenseness today, Bailey told me he didn’t want to see me for a while and it kind of broke my heart. But in the end, after a couple mild tranquilizers ( for me, not him), I helped Bailey finish emptying his room out while we ate peanut butter cups, downloaded music on iTunes and waited for Pizza Hut to arrive. All this happened, of course, after we cried/hugged it out together. He’s sleeping over tonight now. It’ll be our first slumber party in the new “normal”. We’ll figure it out somehow.
Now that I have stopped crying, I’m pretty excited about sitting in my office without all the extra stuff in it that made it Bailey’s bedroom. Part of me wants to grab the vacuum, get it cleaned up, move the furniture around and make the whole room mine. I feel like that would really upset Bailey tonight though, so I’ll wait until after he goes home tomorrow!
This day has been such a roller coaster of emotions I am so glad that it is over. Hopefully we only have a few more days to go until this is all over.