So, I have a few friends ( ok, 2 specifically – you know who you are) who spend a lot of time watching conspiracy videos and are almost convinced that the earth is in fact, flat. My question is, if the earth is actually flat, how do we have seasons? Is the sun in fact actually swinging on a pendulum or maybe earth is because there is no time when we go a very long time without sun? Just something to blow your mind today.
What I really wanted to talk about are seasons. We all go through these seasons of lives where like, spring, we get a chance to start something new with a clean slate, like summer, when we get a change to nurture something important and watch it grow, like fall, when we know it’s time to say good bye or prepare to rest and like winter, while although it might seem like we are sitting still and bleak, we are gaining strength and just waiting until the time is right to bloom again.
Now that I have made it through my own winter and I am feeling back to myself, I am noticing more things around me and able to give attention to them and have the energy and ability to offer sympathy, empathy, joy, concern and happiness for my people that I couldn’t while I was sitting still and gaining strength.
In my life, I have so many wonderful people who I have a relationship that I would define as a mutual admiration society. I know they’re great, they know I’m great – it transcends your normal friendship. I believe Anne of Green Gables would have referred to us as “kindred spirits”. All of these people are in different places in the seasons as well and I have one in particular who thoughts of are weighing heavily on my heart right now. She is in the middle of losing a friend, who we will call Mary, who she has known for probably 30 years or more. Mary has been in poor health for sometime but in the last weeks has given up on living. She stopped eating, stopped participating in therapy, started refusing meds. She is laying in a hospital tonight, not opening her eyes and will probably pass on soon. I tangentially met her a few times and don’t know her well at all, except through the stories my friend has told me, but still I feel sadness about this. I’m sad for my friend who wanted so badly to help Mary rally, I’m sad for her grandchildren and even her son who, from the looks of things on Facebook, is too busy to care what is happening to his mom. Whenever people pass, there is a hole left where they once were there to love the people in their lives. Although, only time and grace can help to heal that, I’m praying tonight that she passes soon and peacefully and that those who love her find peace knowing that she will be with her God and no longer in pain.
The point of sharing this with you is not to be your bring-you-down moment of the day, but to remind us all that life is not infinite. It is so very finite. And although you may feel like you need a moment now to regroup, it’s OK, take that time, sit still and find your strength because we all so much living to do in the short time we are here. And after some time, like a crocus poking up from under the dirt, you will find your way back into the sunshine and flourish once more. I just think that sometimes we get stuck in the day to day and we forget to take a moment and enjoy all the wonder and joy and love that is around us. So since it’s only the 9th day of this new year, you still have time to make some resolutions. Let’s resolve that will cherish each day, that will take care of ourselves and do what is best for us so that even when it’s -9 degrees outside, your spirit knows it’s summer and time to flourish.