So, Hi. My name is Jennifer and I’m a digital pack rat. I keep like every picture I’ve ever taken – like even the ones I took in burst mode and have 17 identical copies of the same blurry picture.
Tonight, I did something very scary. I deleted pictures. The duplicates, the blurry ones, the ones I took and meant to do something with from all those trips I took like 5 and 6 years ago in the semi. All gone. I know that reading this might be causing you great panic, but take a deep breath – it’s ok. I checked with my friend Jenny first.
The majority of the pictures I took were not only of a different place, but of a different time and they don’t hold great memories, they are just taking up room on a memory card now and remind me of something that is over. They no longer hold the same nostalgic spell over me they once did. I kept copies of the ones I really loved, my nephew as a baby, Jonas as a 4 year old trying on my frog slippers with a goofy grin, the Gulf of Mexico – I think you get the point.
But here’s the thing, the pictures are just one of the many of the things that I think we hold on to longer than we should “just in case”. In my deleting I found a picture of myself from about 6/7 years ago, that I time I’m positive I hated. But I looked at it today, with kinder eyes and actually thought I looked pretty. I think it’s really easy for us to get trapped in ideas, memories, they way things were, they would we would like them to be and forget to be here today. I’m not going to lie, those pictures have been taunting me forever – I should do something with them, clean them up and make them meaningful, but really, you can only put so much lipstick on a pig – I mean, how many different angles do you really want to see flat Oklahoma landscape from?
So here’s you bi-weekly reminder, to live in the now, enjoy today and create meaningful moments and memories instead of just taking pictures of your life racing past your window at 70 miles an hour. And for Pete’s sake, say nice things to yourself when you see your pictures – complement your hair, your smile, that shirt you really liked. See yourself the way others do – beautiful and fun and smart and capable and worth loving.